I had an interesting December. I was more organized for the holidays than I’ve ever been. Things were looking good and then it was like I ran into a storm of resistance. I was worried. I was overwhelmed. I was in a funk.
I tried to get out of my funk, but wasn’t very successful. It was a perfect storm of too tired, too much bad food, too little self-care, and too much worry. All this resulted in some ill health and that’s where it gets interesting.
Aside from some virus-y symptoms, I had some problems with my teeth. I’ve never had good teeth and gums and my fear around dental problems makes it the perfect reflection of stress in my life.
So I had a toothache. In recent years, I’ve used some home remedies to try to avoid the expense and discomfort of dentistry. I have a new dentist now, but my reluctance continues. I put the natural methods into place and it helped quite a bit, but did not totally get rid of the discomfort.
One night I thought “I wish I could just get some anti-biotics for my teeth.” Lo and behold, a day and a half later, I woke up with a swollen jaw, went to the doctor, and got some anti-biotics. Hmmmm.
The antibiotics quickly brought down the swelling. My doctor was pretty scared about the swelling, but I knew I created it totally out of resistance. It didn’t come with any pain. Unfortunately, the resistance continued and peaked.
Christmas Eve I worked at my job, from 2pm until 3am, eating all kinds of junk food, feeling exhausted, depressed and generally not taking care of myself. I was halfway through the antibiotics on Christmas morning when I was getting ready for work.
As I forced my tired, stressed body through the motions of getting dressed, I felt my jaw swelling. I ran to the bathroom mirror and saw that the swelling in my jaw was, indeed, coming back.
I was clear that my jaw was reflecting my stressed state, so I took some time to relax and meditate. The swelling went down again. Whew!
I ran around, getting ready for work, and my jaw swelled again. At this point, I gave in, called in sick to work, and spent the day resting. Apparently, antibiotics don’t work as well if you exhaust yourself and eat crap. I spent the rest of the weekend relaxing and the swelling didn’t come back.
I’m feeling much better now and have learned a valuable lesson. I listened to some Abraham-Hicks recordings and really heard when she said that physical illness is a manifestation of resistance. She said that without resistance, the cells of our bodies would heal themselves. When I relaxed, the resistance subsided and my jaw fixed itself.
My teeth still have some soreness here and there. While I wait for my new dental insurance to kick in, I’m experimenting with my teeth. When I feel a twinge in a tooth, I relax. Sometimes I shift my focus to the teeth that feel fine. Both actions help and the pain goes away. I don’t entirely trust this new method of dental management, but I figure if I’m in a good space mentally, I’ll know if I need more action. Meanwhile, I have a built-in stress meter. It’s good to relax.