Big and Small

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When I first learned about the law of attraction, I was in crisis.  I had gotten myself into a bad financial situation and I needed a miracle to get out of it.  At least that’s how it felt at the time.

Needing a miracle, I was suddenly open to the idea of miracles happening.  That’s what allowed me to consider that the law of attraction could be real.  The results promised sure sounded miraculous.  I’d always dismissed it as wishful thinking, but I needed some wishful thinking about then.

There were some miraculous things that happened.  As I opened to the possibility that I could get what I needed if I could learn to expect it, I got more of what I needed.

One night I got very excited about the idea of financial success.  I’d been reading about the law of attraction and I got to a place where I really believed it could solve my financial problems and go on to bring me everything I wanted.  I was giddy with the thought and belief of it.  I could barely sleep that night because I was so excited.

At the time, I had an Etsy shop, online, where I sold quilted accessories I’d made.  I was progressing slowly.  At that point I was making 2 or 3 sales a month.  The next morning I woke up to 3 sales I had made overnight and I knew that my excitement and confidence had drawn in those sales.

It’s been a few years now that I’ve been studying the law of attraction and how to use it to make my life better.  My life is better.  My financial situation is better.  My work life is better.  I had a dramatically easy change in diet that allowed me to lose 25 pounds without trying.

Life is better, but it’s gotten boring. I’ve felt stalled and depressed. I’ve found myself resenting the need to get happy. I finally figured out why. I’ve been thinking small. I’ve fallen back into habits of reasoning out what I think I can accomplish instead of dreaming about what I’d like to accomplish. I’ve gotten reasonable and it’s killing me.

Abraham-Hicks talks about this in some of the tapes on youtube. She warns of people trying to avoid the pain of not having their dreams by avoiding dreaming. It doesn’t work. I’ve felt like I’m in one of those commercials for anti-depressants where the commercial shows the depressed people walking around in a gray haze, huddling in oversized sweaters.

Barbara Sher refers to this issue in her book on goal-setting, Wishcraft.  This book was first published in 1979 and it’s fabulous.  The first part of the book gives exercises for identifying our most cherished dreams and the second half of the book gives instructions for making those dreams happen.  She says that the practical instructions in the second half of the book won’t really work “unless you bring your highest hopes and deepest dreams to it.”  I guess that’s true for creating using the law of attraction too.

So now I’m back to dreaming.  I’m like the patients in the anti-depressant commercials after they’ve had their meds.  I’m living in color.  I’m frolicking on the beach with my dog and my loving family.  I’m smiling serenely at my successful art opening.  I’m speaking before the UN.  Okay, maybe those aren’t my dreams, but mine are just as much fun.  I’ll tell you about them when they get here.

(Photo courtesy of Debi Barton Haverly, @debihaverly)